100 Days Healthier Me – Day Sixty-One

If you read my earlier blog post, you know I am battling anxiety hardcore today. A large part of me wants to curl up into a ball until everything has moved past me. In the end, that would amount to absolutely nothing. I am not one to watch my life go on without me. I am not one to allow the world to ride me like a slow moving donkey. Instead, I am the one to try lasso a pterodactyl and soar with fear and excitement.

Neither is actually an easy option. The first option, you carry the weight of the world on your shoulders. I felt like this happened a lot when I was working at the pizzeria. I always state that I did love lots about the job. I helped out last night, pulling pizzas from the oven at the end of the night. It allowed my order coworker to calm down a little bit and gets things started in the back of the house. It was a fun time, and yeah, without the responsibility of anything else, I enjoyed it. That responsibility was the weight that I did not want to have on me.

It was the weight that weighed me down. I liked doing the job and being able to walk away from it. It trapped me and weighed on every aspect of my life leaving me nothing else but that weight. I threw it off with only a small chance on the horizon. I had no idea if I would fall or fly, but I took the chance. Sometimes, that’s all you can do.

The pterodactyl catching takes more time and effort in its own way. The biggest part is finding your pterodactyl. They’re not exactly easy to come by. In all seriousness, it’s hard to find the things that will make you feel that kind of fear and excitement in life with the right kind of stability behind it. The best way to put it is that this is what following your dreams is like.

You have to find your dream. Then you have to find your way to bring yourself to it. Then, you have to work to keep at it. You have to tame it, nourish it, but let it be wild. It’s not easy any step of the way, but you take it one step at a time and very soon you are finding yourself on the right path and soaring.

This is what I’m currently doing. I want to write. That is my dream. I want to bartend, which is a passion I have. I just have to find the right job that I can do by itself instead of having two jobs to do it. Right now, it is time to streamline everything. And then I need to build the proper life around that streamlined nature. That will give me the chance to catch a star when I shoot for them instead of just flying right past. And catching that star is what I have to do.

If you want to see more of the Advocate of Adventure’s healthy living ideas, her book, or just check her out. You can find out more here at the Advocate of Adventure.

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