\As consistent readers know, I had a massive face plant at the end of November. I broke a tooth. I killed two nerves. And it has cost me a considerable amount of money. In that time, I was drinking excessively. I was throwing money around like it was going out of style, or apparently thought I never considered an accident like this happening. Today, I get my teeth fixed fully with them putting crowns on my teeth. It got me thinking about how we all have parts and pieces of us that we may see as broken and need to work towards fixing.
I am a flawed individual, just like all the people around me. None of us are perfect. We try to be perfect when in reality, we are only human. And that’s great. However, that doesn’t mean we don’t want to strive to be better.
I’m not perfect, but I still want to be in better shape.
I’m flawed, but I want to write consistently.
I spend a lot of time looking at my life. I read books about bringing out your inner happiness and finding your true self. I do all these things because I want to continue to grow. To fix these things in your life that you find problems, you need to prioritize them. That’s the first step is making the time and putting for the effort.
I have to start prioritizing my stories more. I need to be building spaces that work well for me writing and build systems that enhance what I’m doing. I have started to some extent by carrying the equipment with me to work, but I now need to have a better space at home. When I get up, I need to be starting my day at home. I need to give myself no choice but to be working on these stories and this universe. I also need to learn to say no to being so active socially, and that’s hard for someone who until recently never has felt quite good enough to have the kind of friends he does.
The gym is always a tough one, but also deals with my ego. I’m afraid of looking silly or afraid of hurting myself. I don’t prioritize weight lifting for that reason. I go to the gym quite often but it doesn’t necessarily mean gains because of the routine that I do. It has meant maintaining. I went to the gym yesterday with a friend and still feel the workout in my shoulders. I feel strong which is one of the things that I have always wanted to feel. I need to get over my own head and just start doing it.
Fixing what you find broken is important. Don’t hope for miracles, instead make your own. That’s what will be the driving force to make you better. I have been working miracles for months now, and my positivity has gone through the roof. It’s an amazing feeling to patch yourself up and to be the superhero you want to be.