Change, Change, Change

Change is constant. Change is a part of life. Be the change you want to see in the world. All these cliches continue to ring true as some swift and major changes have overtaken my life. And yeah, because things have happened so quickly, some of them are harder than others to accept, but a major change has happened in my life and I can’t help but talk about it.

Last year at this time, I was prepping for a great birthday. I bought tickets to go see Waitress with Sara Barallias on Thursday. I spent Friday afternoon drinking with my friend, Tiffany. Saturday was spent at a house warming parting with my friends Jessica and Ephraim. And finally on Sunday, I spent the day at a museum with Alex and Elizabeth. I made a promise to myself that I would finish my novel in my 31st year. I still work at Two Boots. I had yet to really start bartending and my friends were scattered among various groups.

I was not without my problems. My management position was beginning to weigh on me. I was tired. I started drinking quite a bit more and fell into more than one bad situation. And it took a long time to get better.

It’s still hard to recognize the person in the mirror. He stares back with that full beard, that smile, and a confidence I never thought I would see on that face.

I finished my novel; well, I finished a rough draft of my novel. I got a job in a new place that allows for new people and experiences to come into my life. I have found a group of people who radiate positivity and hopefulness. I work out daily which led to me being the healthiest I have ever been. I feel connected with myself and the world around me.

The signs all point to a positive shift continuing on. I’m meeting new people who keep pushing me forward. I’m helping or running events that keep me close to the community. I have friends who are pushing me to not only flourish and thrive, but to help others do the same. I’ve found myself in the environment I didn’t realize I was waiting for.

My friend always makes these comments about how astounded he is about my progress and how far I’ve come. And honestly, I am too. I have these moments of doubt, which come and go, but for the most part I continue to keep my perky attitude.

Change is real. And it happens. It takes a lot of looking at your world, your friends, and your life, and deciding what to make of it. You can give in to the ego, doubts, and fears, but that just stalls your growth moving forward. If I can do this and step into the sunshine, anyone can do it if you just believe in yourself. All it took me is a book, a few words of encouragement, and willpower to begin unlocking my potential and untying me from the past. I think everyone can get here, and I believe in you. Be the change you want to see in the world. Change is a part of life. Change is constant.

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